let's just put it this way.. basically last night i found out something which made me sooooooo sad. and it really broke my heart. it's crushed and it fell apart. i don't know what to do to it.. much less how to mend it.
i thought it'd finally happen. everyone was jealous of me and everybody thought it was something else. so i believed them and i assumed which is wrong. as always. and i had my hopes WAYYY to high. so i guess this is what i get for assuming something. i love what he did and there's nothing wrong with that. infact it was really sweet of him to have done that. but i guess he shouldn't have done that if there's nothing there.
now i'm all torn up and i really don't know what to do. at times like this i miss chicklets because they're usually always here to help me and i feel comfortable to talk to them about it. but now, i just don't feel like telling anyone. i feel so dumb and stupid. like my ego is just waaayyyyy too low right now. how am i supposed to tell everyone this? how am i supposed to look at him in school?
