holy fucked up.

mmkay. 2 days ago.. i texted brendan.
"hey, so i'll see you tomorrow night, right? you better come or else... you wanna know what's funny? i'm not even kidding"

well he didn't reply.

Friday:
i babysat the whole day and may i just say that my house looked like a freakin wrestling arena. shiit. so around 6:15.. sarah and richard picked me up and we went to liz's house and fester was there with his friend but he can't stay. then i texted brendan and i was like "goodluck with your game tonight." and he didn't reply.. and well i forgot what else we did but i remember we were driving around downtown and sarah swerved and we got hit by an SUV. so we pulled up at hungry howie's and we tried to calm sarah down.. so of course our plans got fucked up because sarah didn't wanna drive to Olive Garden and to SCHS anymore since we got hit. so i tried to call brendan when we got hit which was like around 7:30 and he didn't answer coz i forgot he's already playing at Stoney.. so we all thought u know.. we're not gonna have boys over and our drinks won't come till 10 and basically we're having the worst night ever! so we chilled at liz's house.. watched "stick it" again and ate some pizza and chips.. then dion and jason came over for 5 seconds and then they left. then, aaron stopped by and we chilled in his SUV for awhile then kemler stopped by to give us our drinks and cigarettes he gave us a fith (idk the spelling) of raspberry smirnoff and newport cigarettes. one regular and one with menthol i think. so then we drank and smoke outside the house.. and i went back inside since i was freezing.. but a little later i went back outside just to find dion was over again and he's smoking!! i was like "wtf?! where'd you come from?" so we chilled back inside and i guess brendan's game just got done.. so he texted me and honey was using my fone so i didn't see that he texted me.. 10 mins. later.. he was calling me and we talked and i asked him if he's comin over. he said he might if his parents will let him out around 12. so i was like shit. so then adam came (which i can't believe came over!! i had a crush on him last year. haha) so i was getting mad coz brendan said he'll call back and tell me if he'll come over or not. and i was getting angry because he hasn't called yet and people are like actually over there with us. chillin. and people had at least stopped by to say hi and he didn't. and he was the very first one we invited. so i was like getting mad, you know? and then my fone rang and he told me he's down rochester rd and tienken.. so he was asking for directions.. so i gave the fone to liz since i wanted her to give the direction. so i went outside and waited for him.. and i was asking him to come in.. and he's being stubborn and i was getting pissed.. so we chatted for a little bit and he hugged me and he left. so i was kinda pissed because the idea was for us to hang out. so it didn't happen. but i really can't blame him because i told him that he could just stop by if he doesn't want to hang out. so right as soon as he left.. i was really pissed and almost mad.. but dion was like comforting me and telling me not to ruin my night because of brendan and at least brendan stopped by. so right after brendan left.. he texted me and we texted for 2 hours and while we're texting.. kemler came back and smoked weed with us.. and then we drank and we found out that catey, stephanie and dan flipped catey's jeep and it's wrecked and they all went to the hospital. so then sarah was like crying and stuff.. but here's the text convo.

Brendan: hey, sorry bout that
Russel: it's cool. thanks for stopping by
Brendan: yeah no problem
i forgot what i said but i think i told him that i wanted to hang but maybe next time when im not freezing.
Brendan: Haha. you should have just chilled in my car...
Russel: well.. you seemed like you didn't wanna hang.. so i was like mmkay.
Brendan: i did too!!
Russel: why didn't you come in then?
Brendan: haha what was i gonna do inside?
Russel: idk. chill, drink.. smoke.. idk.
Brendan: Well i couldn't drink if i had to drive home.. and i guess i could have chilled, but whatev. maybe next time. are you just stayin there for the night?
Russel: yeah. im sleepin over.
Brendan: are you guys goin out at all? cause if you wanna chill here for a little you can.. i can just sneak you in my basement.
Russel: are u gonna pick us up?
Brendan: no that's why i asked if you were goin out at all. and who would "us" be?
Russel: hmm.. actually idk anymore coz they're all smoking now so they don't wanna leave and i think i'm the only one who wants to go.
Brendan: Take a car then.. you can return it..
Russel: i asked jason to drive me there but they're leavin now.
Brendan: damn. i feel like chillin
Russel: come back then.
Brendan: the cars are in the garage. i can't.
Russel: are ur parents light sleepers?
Brendan: not at all. i sneak people in my house all the time. that's why i wanted you to come over.
Russel: then just sneak the car out.
Brendan: i have to open the garage. they would def. wake up.
Russel: i would come over if i had a car and if i could drive.
Brendan: who is over there that can drive?
Russel: nobody. all the boys just left.
Brendan: so none of the girls have cars?
Russel: no. sorry. (then i guess i said something else coz his reply has a "NO")
Brendan: No. im so bored too
Russel: well you could've stayed but u just wanted to go to work so bad.
Brendan: huh? no. whatever. i'll just talk to you tomorrow.goodnight. (i think he thought i was drunk coz of what jason said earlier.)
Russel: no. coz you said you had to leave coz u have work tomorrow. aryt. goodnight.
Brendan: if anything changes and you can get a ride over here, let me know.
Russel: i really won't be able to come over tonight because nobody can drive . well sarah can but she wouldnt drive me since we got into an accident tonight. but i would come over if i could.

so i guess he fell asleep. but liz was like "you should go over there coz it seems like he really wants you there." i was like.. "i know. but who would drive me???" so then after the boys left.. we just layed on the bed and watched gothika.. and i fell asleep around 2:30.. then around 4:30-ish.. sarah left since she was crying really hard coz of catey and all them. but i honestly just got bored so i decided to go to sleep. idk why i didn't get buzzed at all. i mean, i drank 2 glasses of sprite with raspberry smirnoff.. then a whole shot of raspberry smirnoff.. and i smoked.. and when i was talking to brendan outside.. people started comin outside to meet him and jason was teaching me how to smoke and brendan was just like looking. and idk. whatevs.

so that was a fun night. this morning, liz, honey and i woke up feeling really sore and i woke up with 2 scratches on my hand and i was like "where did this come from??" liz was like "welcome to the world of alcohol." and we ate pancakes and i ate the chips again from last night. it was fun.:)

so that's pretty much what happened last night and i had so much fun. especially considering that we thought nobody would come and that that sleepover was such a waste of time. and like all of the boys that we invited actually showed up. even if they didn't stay.. they at least stopped by to say hi and all. and kemler actually hung out with us and the boys were very cooperative. they were being quiet and they knew when to hide if they hear noises from upstairs. haha! so basically that was fun. and like dion was really nice to me and he's like "im your big brother now.. so don't let anyone ruin your night" and stuff. he's really different from what i thought he was.
but this morning, brittnie crashed her truck into a tree and idk what else happened but im really sad that all the crashes happened within 12 hours. sarah who was drivin us got hit, catey and them crashed the jeep.. and then brittine crashed her truck. im so sad. like i don't even wanna leave the house. but idk.

long entry.