i don't know.

i honestly don't know what to do.. hmm. mmkay. brendan is like seriously one of the hottest guys in our school. everybody likes him and everybody loves him. so basically he can get any girl he wants.--> that's my problem. we're in the same 2nd hour class and we made this bond. we're really good friends now. liz was telling me this story and she's like "Jimmy told me that guys would only hang with girls if they like them." so i was like oh ok u know.. but then i realized how i invited brendan and he said he would hang. he didn't really hang with us last friday night. but he stopped by to say hi.. and then when he got home.. he texted me and told me that he wants to hang and he wants me to come over. like, he really wants me to.. you guys all saw the text message.. it's the entry before this entry. he really wanted me to come over because he was even telling me to get a car and drive.--- if only i had my license. gosh. but even then he asked if there is someone who can drive me there to his place..:) it's so cute. liz was even like "i think he really wants you there. you should go" hmm.. but idk. i really dnt know!!! and he's been really sweet and all that crap. asks me what im doing and all that.. idk. liz told me last friday to ask him if he likes me and just tell him that i was buzzed.. that's a good reason. i would but i guess i just don't have the balls to do that. im just afraid to ruin another good friendship. last friday when we were standing on the side of brendan's car.. liz was like "mmkay. now im gonna go inside and leave you 2 out here.. mmkay?" and i was like "what does that suppose to mean?" and i was just like giving liz this wtf look. and since it was dark outside.. i think brendan didn't see that.:) but honestly though.. idk.

if he actually went inside and drank and idk what else.. i could've made out with him. idk. that was the plan. but his ass had to work the next day and he had to drive home. so psha.. im mad.