i want his attention..

mmkay, by the title.. i guess you can quite tell what kind of day i had. i was just like pissed coz i guess if you wanna know the truth, i want his attention.. i mean, who wouldn't want their crush's attention? so i want his attention but i didn't get it today.. like, he borrowed my fone for the whole hour but then we both had to do something and we didn't even talk and stuff.. then when we got back in the classroom, he sat on the soft couch and he didn't like say anything.. but i guess it's coz i was so far away from him.. and then i yelled out "TIME TO GO!" when i saw it was like 9:41 already.. since that's like our time to leave from 2nd hour.. and he didn't even stand up because he's watching the school news. i mean, i was watching it too but when i saw the time, i was like "err... i wanna go now" so i left the room and i tried to wait for him.. but it seems like he's too caught up with the show, so i just left. THAT MEANS: we didn't walk from 2nd hour together.. and the whole time i was walking, i was like getting pissed. so then i went to my third hour and i was talking to kelly and i showed her the whole conversation that i had with brendan since i started it during 3rd hour yesterday.. so she told me

Kelly: i think he was at Sam's house yesterday. coz sam lives in my subdivision and he came from that direction.
Russel: WHAT?? what time?
Kelly: like around 4
Russel: after he flirted with me?!?!?! and after the game he texted me too!

i am mad since he was flirting with me the whole day, then he came over to sam's house?? then texted me again that night?!

THIS IS WHAT HAPPENED LAST NIGHT:
i went to his game and i was wearing white like everybody else since the school said we had to wear white , and i was sitting in the middle of the crowd.. like right on the middle and i'm short.. --> so i'm very hard to find, right? well of course the whole time i was just looking at him and i saw him looking at me for good 3 minutes.. i guess he was trying to check if that's me. so after that he kept on staring at me from the bench.. and then when i got him he texted me and he's like "hey, thanks for comin"
but how in the world would he have found me? like he couldn't have possibly just spotted me over there! i was wearing white like everybody else, i am short and i was in the middle of the crowd.. very hard to find!! if he wasn't really looking for me.. he wouldn't have found me.. so i guess he was looking for me.. but then it makes me mad how he flirted with me the whole day then went over to sam's house..? grr..

so then after third hour today, i don't know if it's because i was yelling at someone or because he just doesn't want to say hi to me.. but he walked by me and he didn't say hi to me whatsoever... so that got me even more mad.. but hey, if he thinks that i will text him first and come to him... i don't think so. im done with that.. if he texts me.. then we'll text.. if he doesn't.. then whatevs.:) hey, if i did that before, i can do it again mmkay? hahaha!