it's over

brendan and i are pretty much over now. why?

HE KISSED SAM!

yeah.. kelley told me that he saw brendan kiss sam. and whatever.. but he kissed her before 2nd hour.. and 2nd hour is our class together. so when i found out, i was shaking and i went to the bathroom and i cried. then i went back to the classroom and it got worse.. so i cried.. i didn't want him to see me cry so i even went to the back of the room and hid there till i've wiped all of my tears away.. but i guess he saw me so he texted me

Brendan: hey what's wrong?
Russel: :
so then he sat right next to me and asked me what's wrong and stuff and i didn't talk to him. when we were walking from 2nd hour.. he was gonna talk to me so i got my fone and called vanessa and i was asking her if she's still pickin me up coz last night she said she wants to pick me up from school for 3rd and 4th hour. so then i called her after 2nd hour while walking with brendan. and he just looked at me like "hey what's goin on?" kind of. so i pretty much left him.. didn't talk to him whatsoever while walking.. then i went to my 3rd hour and i was waiting for kelley at the door and i saw brendan since his 3rd hour is like right by mine. so i went to right as soon as we saw each other, i walked in my 3rd hour and i know he knows that i saw him.. so i just walked in my room. so when i got my fone he texted me again

Brendan: what's up russel? you okay?
Russel: it would be pointless to tell you
Brendan: why? what's goin on?
Russel: just some issues.
Brendan: anything you wanna talk about?
Russel: goodluck with your game tonight.
Brendan: you gonna be there?
Russel: should i?
Brendan: why not?
Russel: uh, if i feel like it. or probley the 2nd half (i said this because he said he's starting the game.. so i said that so he would know that im not going to the game just coz of him)

so he didn't reply but i when i was walking to the door of my 3rd hour, getting ready to leave... he walked by and he saw me. he smiled but i was like meehh. so during lunch of my 4th hour.. he texted me again

Brendan: what's wrong? like tell me what's up..
Russel: why?
Brendan: coz i wanna know..
Russel: it's just something.
Brendan: o that helps..
Russel: i really don't wanna talk about it..
Brendan: k well is it family stuff?
Russel: no..
Brendan: well if you ever want to talk about it.. just let me know
Russel: thanks. goodluck with ur game tonight.
Brendan: thanks.

so he finally stopped texting me after that.. and then i saw him after my lunch.. since he has 3rd lunch.. and 2nd and 3rd lunch overlaps. so i saw him and he saw me since he was standing like near me.. and he looked at me and i guess he was waiting if i was gonna say anything to him.. and i didn't.. so he just walked away.

then i saw him after 6th hour since i went to the senior locker area because i always do since i meet heather there for driver's training. she goes to the senior locker area since her boyfriend's locker is down there and she hangs with him and so i meet her there after 6th hour.. so today, i went there and i saw brendan just like the other day. but today since i was walking with liz, we all stopped at the senior locker area. i knew that brendan's gonna come any minute later.. so i just turned my back at his direction and i asked liz and heather if brendan's coming and they said yeah.. and then i pretended like i didn't know that he is.. so he saw me and he hit me with his car key.. it kinda stung.. hahaha! but yeah.. right after he hit me, i looked at him.. you know, to pretend that i didn't know who did it and i wanna know who it is. so i looked at him and he gave me a smile. then liz was like "aww.. he hit you with his keys then gave this little smile. that's cute" and then heather said the exact same thing.. and i was just like "that would've been cute if he hadn't kissed sam."

so i missed his basketball game.. and I FEEL SOOOO GOOD ABOUT IT! hahha. coz it means that i missed something big for him. like he told me before that he's starting the game.. so that's big.. and i missed this game!! that means, i can honestly just get over him.. right? then he texted me tonight.

Brendan: hey, what u doin?
Russel: about to watch snakes on a plane. how was the game?
Brendan: we won
Russel: nice.. what are u doing?

then he didn't reply anymore.. but i really could care less about him anymore.. we're moving on right? so idk.

I'M CRAVING FOR COLDSTONE RIGHT NOW!!! i really want their ice cream..:)