is it even worth it?

last night, i thought about fighting for him. i thought that this time, i will prepare myself to get hurt even more if i really want to be with him. last night i thought im ready to finally fight for someone. but today, after all of the stuff i've heard for the past few days, i can't help but ask if it's even worth it. i honestly don't know anymore.:(

okay, im really tired and exhausted. pagod na talaga. i don't know if i can take more. for the first time, i think i actually don't think im ready to hear more about how meghan and garrett hooked up. stephanie g. told me that it happened a week or 2 before sadie's and they weren't drunk. fine. they were sober. but still.. making out with garrett? and they're not drunk.. like what was he thinking?! i have noooo idea how that happened but i think he likes her.:(

i really hope that he's just using her. but if he is.. then did he kiss me just coz he wanted some or because he likes me..?

**in other news, i got my permit today. finally. after 2 fuckin weeks, i actually got it. i drove from the sec of state to meijer's then home today. hahaha. i just nearly killed my mom and i inside the car. she was freakin out. and evidently, i didn't know how to park. so yeah. whatever. idkk.. we'll see.