what the fucckkk??

it started off right but ended horribly.

liz was absent. that alone was pretty shitty. but before 2nd hour, i saw garrett standing near the circle and i knew he was there so i didn't really pay attention to him. i was looking for neeko and i didn't realize that he was coming towards me.. and i guess he saw me, so he play-punched my arm and i looked around to see who punched me and i saw him smiling.. and i was just like "oh hey." then i smiled and left. im so dumb. i should've hugged him when he did that. so you know.. my day started right just coz of that. god im such a nerd. anyway, i had an oral exam for spanish and my partner was so retarded. i like hate him forever now. i asked him one question and he bombarded me with like 89374289347 answers. i didn't get the chance to ask him anymore since we have like, limited words to use. my teacher asked us to grade ourselves. from 1-5, 5 being the highest.. and i was honestly expecting a 1 or 2 since i just blew the whole thing because of my partner. but when i got my gradesheet, i got a 3. it's horrible, yes i know. but it was better than i what i expected. my performance was horrible. i just like froze up there.

then before 5th hour, i was talking to garrett and stuff.. then we walked to 5th hour together.. and this girl meghan just honestly pissed me off. now, i hate her more than ever. more than i ever did. i was walking with garrett, you know.. like "quality time" and she came up behind us and she was like "garrett.... hi.. omg that wasn't me. it was kaylee" and she started flirting with him and i just like laughed becuase she sounded so pathetic. and garrett didn't even say a word to her.. but after that i exploded in my 5th hour. i was mad.. then here's the catch.. cami told me GARRETT MADE OUT WITH MEGHAN. i was like whatt the fuckk?!?!
i started freakin out and shit till she told me that it was before i asked him to sadie's. that kinda made it a little better because i mean, it happened like right when i started talking to him. it's not like he knew me before and liked me before. and it's not like he knew i was gonna ask him to sadie's. but now, i hate meghan more than ever!!! i really wanna shoot her and kill her like no fuckin other.

she's such a slutt. she thinks she's so pretty but she's not. she has a boyfriend too. a college boyfriend. and she cheated on him....... WITH MY GUY. like, wtf is wrong with her?!?! she's such a slut....... my god. what a whore.
at least when i made out with garrett, i wasn't like committed to anybody much less, likes anybody. god, she's a fuckin slut. what i don't get though is how could garrett make out with her?! she's like.. ugly. that's what everybody's telling me. so like, how do you think i feel? he made out with her.. and then made out with me?? that's nasty.

so i was just about having the worst day of my life and i skipped 6th hour and i went to go talk to stephanie instead and i was like letting my heart out and steph was like

Steph: well okay, today after lunch, he walked to his locker and i was there.. so i went up to him and i asked him "what do u think of russel?" and he started smiling and he's like "i'm not gonna tell you becuase you're gonna tell her."

that like made me smile. haha. coz i didn't think she would do that. u know? like, i wouldn't think of something like that. well, maybe i would but not like on the spot like that. it was so sweet of her to have done that. but thing is, garrett didn't say what he thinks of me.. so i was like "well that means, he doesn't like me.." and steph's like "no.. then, why would he be smiling and stuff if he didn't like you?"

IIIIII DOOOON'T KNOOWWWWWWWWW.

valentine's day= watching chick flicks, eating ice cream and crying would be my pathetic day. well, i would ask liz if she wants to go out to eat dinner or something tomorrow night. then like, watch movies or something. coz it seems like we wouldn't have classes tomorrow anyway. might be a snowday. it would seem like it because i think we're gonna get 9-11 inches of snow tonight and it'd be impossible for kids to go to school tomorrow. so yeah. that'd be my day. but uh, idk. we'll see.. and we'll see if my daddy will let me. hahaha. i don't wanna go to school because there's no point of going to school because garrett's not gonna be there becuase he's getting a knee surgery on valentine's day. it'll just suck to go to school and see all the couples being cute and shit and like, garrett's not there.. and i'd be all alone. but it's not like if he was there, he'd ask me. but you know, idk. ahaha. so yeah. whatevs. i just don't wanna go to school tomorrow.