dark blue

so last night i was on on aim and garrett signed on. and he's been on for like 30 mins. already and he wouldn't IM me first. i was getting really depressed already becuase i walked him to class and i thought "don't i deserve at least that much attention from him?" so i got depressed and as my away message, i wrote "i wish i had the right drug to kill mee" and then a few minutes later, he IM'd me. i started getting all happy and stuff. to cut long story short, he was really concerned to the point where we had a real conversation goin on. it wasn't just like a bullshit conversation. HE OPENED UP TO ME and i opened up to him in return. we just like talked about our lives and stuff. i cant believe that we opened up to each other. it's amazing.

i loved it.