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LAST NIGHT:
i knew that people were going to toxic night club. but since i didnt tell my dad that i wanna go and i didnt know who can drive me and stuff.. i decided not to go. and then lauren told me that sparky's going. and well sparky has a car and he drives.. so at like 6:00, i called my dad and i told him that i wanna go. unbelievably, he said yes. so i went to toxic around 9:00. i was with sparky, katie, caitlyn, jaclyn and emily. oh lordd toxic was boring at first but then i started dancing and i was dancing with emily and jaclyn since caitlyn and katie were all busy dancing with all these cute guys.. and then i felt someone grab my hips and was like hardcore grinding with me. idk if it was his intention to lift up my skirt or if his grip was just too tight because i was this close to making out with him but well i was too busy pulling my skirt down. damn i think i pulled it down 3 times. anyway.. i was lonely for a bit so katie and caitlyn were telling me to go look for a guy to dance with. so we spotted this kid wearing hollister and he was the kid we saw earlier who was showing off his abs. he was hott. so katie and caitlyn were pushing me to dance with him. i didnt want to just because.. and then a little later i was dancing with jaclyn and emily.. and then a group of guys came running towards us. then i felt someone grab my hips again and was like grinding and shit with me.. i turned around only to find out like 3 other guys dancing with me and then their other friend who can no longer find another spot behind me, jumped infront of me and he started dancing with me too. so aka i had like 4 guys around me, dancing with me. so emily and jaclyn gave me these "do u mind sharing some?" looks. hahaha it was hilarious man. and when i turned around, i was surprised to find that Hollister guy was dancing with me. katie and caitlyn were really jealous. hahaha. and then later on i was dancing and this guy asked me "do u wanna dance?" and im so sorry to say this but he was really ugly and wasnt my type.. so i was like "uh not really sorry" but i was already dancing with emily. so i felt bad. but what's worse is.. the guy who was dancing with katie (who she's really good friends with) was friends with that kid who just asked me to dance. AND I TURNED HIM DOWN. haha omgg i felt sooooo bad. and then here's the thing.. sparky= never bring him to a club. he was suchhhh a horrible dancer. omggg so sorry. he tried to dance with me and omg. he was sooooo horrible :\ really horrible.

TODAY:
so a couple days ago, i posted a quote in my myspace bulletin. and i actually really got that from kierston's myspace. but then ive seen it go around myspace bulletins before.. so i thought what the heck? so i posted it and a couple days later, i had a new message and it was from kierston. honestly i was scared because i didnt know what to expect. she replied to the bulletin that i posted and she was like "i actually wrote that myself and people stole it. haha im glad u agreee" so i was like oh boyy. so i told her it was really good and then i asked if she didnt like me or whatever. so from there we started talking. she opened up a bit to me and i kinda opened up to her too. she's really a nice girl. so aka she's pretty, she's smart and she's really nice. she told me this:

kierston: he said he doesnt want a girlfriend? HAHA did you tell him having a girlfriend is like RARE for him. and that your the best girl he could get so hes missing out. hes a doushe. i always see you posting bullitens and stuff about moving on when he should be the heartbroken one not you.. hes not that special you can do way better FYI. haha

kierston: like honestly if it seems like you care more about him then he does about you. then maybe you need to drop that white kid. because honestly like im speaking for the whole world when i say this.. you can do better and you being his girlfriend would make him seem like a BALLLAAAA ( and we all know hes really not) your too pretty for him HONESTLYYYY

so that's what kierston told me. and with that coming from kierston, i trust her because she's had experience with garrett and she's like drop-dead gorgeous. so ive come to realize that maybe i dont really need him in my life. maybe i was just really blind to not see that. kierston made me feel sooooo much better. really.

oh and we both hate MEGHAN!!!! wowowowowow fucking white trash whore :] seriously, do a survey around the school and see how many people hates her. even her friends talk shit bout her. every single one. she's really a fucking slut and a whore :] god damn how does she manage?? hahaha she's nothing but grossness. she jumps every single guy she gets her hands on. see? sluttt. omg.