you should know

when to let go....

and that's exactly what im doing.

it's gonna be really hard and really painful. it will take lots and lots of energy and time.. maybe even a good cry or two. but yesterday, as i was laying in my bed watching One Tree Hill, i realized that maybe it's time for me to move on. it'll be harder for me to do so considering his locker is right by mine and i'd always see him hanging out there and having to share the same friends. it's been almost 3 months since i officially started liking him and almost 2 months since sadie's. it's been a long time although it doesnt feel like it. those 3 months really went by soooo quickly and i didnt even notice.

yes, last night i bawled my eyes out again. prayed. cried. ate chocolates. watched some more one tree hill till i've had enough. listened to music till i fell asleep. woke up this morning with puffy eyes. and then i ate more chocolates.

this 3-day weekend would really help a lot because im in the process of moving on and well i need a 3 day break. and then i only have a week left of school and then im off to spring break and so is he. he's leaving for arizona and i'd be really glad to not having to talk to him over break. unlike before, i would hate to have long breaks because i wouldnt get to see him.. but now, i think i really want a long break to help me move on and get on with life. this is just like what happened to me and karl. i needed a break from him and all the drama between us.. and well, thanksgiving break was there. so spring break shall do me good :]

i hope this works out for me. and i hope i stand strong in the end :]