thanks pao :)

omg yesterday in 5th hour.. i got really really surprised. i wasnt even paying attention when the door swung open and guess who was standing there? Brendan. oh. i swear i had a different feeling. suddenly i had butterflies in my stomach. hahha but i think it was just because of what i did the day before. omg my heart was seriously ecstatic. but it was only for a couple of minutes. he gave my teacher his project then said hi and left :) it was funny.

i was walking down the E-wing and guess who was walking behind me and heather? Garrett. but you know what's even funnier? we didnt say anything to each other. like, nothing at all. and i think he got in trouble..? ha idk. he was talkin to ms. casaza so idk :) hahaha

so about my headline. i was talking to pao a few days ago and i was telling her how much i like garrett and stuff. and she said something that probley bitchslapped me to reality.


it's so true. i have a life to live and i cant do this anymore. i have more to come for me. if i get stuck in this drama with him when he doesnt even care and i know fully well that it's not gonna happen, then nothing's gonna happen to me. im just glad that it happened. because of him i learned lots and lots of things. im glad that it happened because he made me feel things i've never felt before and i really really appreciate that..

and yeah it's true. when you love someone so so much and then you get hurt so so badly that your heart gets ripped like no other.. you become numb. you dont feel anything.

now, im just tired. i dont think im ready to like someone again THAT much right now. i pretty much gave EVERYTHING to garrett.. and for my heart to get ripped just like that and that badly.. i dont think im ready to anytime soon.

so for now.. im gonna be single and have no attachments :) it's fun when ur just single. especially during the summer ;)

well here's a quote for me and you babbiieesss :)

"things happen for a reason. tears will eventually fade and one day everything will be exactly how it's supposed to be. moving on is a process && you have to promise yourself that you're really ready to let go :)"